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[May. 18th, 2008|07:11 pm] |
Pamela. I really want to post this entry, it is a must
These few weeks, everything just seems to change
I can't catch up with it, nor even accustom to it
Friends, lifestyle, everything, everything changed
Should I say is for the good or bad? I don't know
I am rather satisfied with this life of mine,
There's you. There're my friends, Jun Wen, Javier...
But, something is just amiss.
These few days, I have been in school, wondering
Is life better now? But, the answer is no
Partially, because I haven't gotten over the fact that I don't like JJ
Besides that, friends here, are just different except for a few
I can rather say they are just classmates to me, not close friends yet
Some are just rather fucked up.
What keeps me back in JJ, is just purely soccer and some people
If not, I would have planned to head to PJC at the end of the year
Aiyo! There's still approximately 17 more months to go, till the A's
I really hope that day comes. The graduation day, please come!
I don't know why, I just keep sticking on to the past
Just don't want to let it go
I would say, 'Change is the only constant thing in this world'
Agree? [:
Sadly to say, even feelings do change
We don't share that same special love we felt during the start of this relationship
I can't describe that feeling, the feeling of looking forward to everyday with you
Those silly times of ours, the cake, the balloons, the sunflowers, the cards
The walk to west coast park, the fireworks, the zoo outings, the movies,
the late night talks, the bill-exploding number of messages, the constant ringing of msn,
the bus rides, the surprises, the times during prefect camp and orientation, the list just goes on.
Everything doesn't seems to exist now
What currently remains, is just having meals with you
I am not blaming anyone here
We are from different schools, have different timetables
Lets think about it.
When is the last time...
we had a bus ride together,
we watched a movie,
we went out,
we gave surprises,
we talk into the night,
our bill exploded?
Is it more than two weeks ago, or even two months ago? Hah, not surprising
Ironically, as we spend lesser time together,
We still have quarrels
I know it hurts our hearts to quarrel
I just want you to know, that we must have a certain level of tolerance
Just because my phone is busy, and you screamed at me, is not worth it
Truthfully, my heart just aches everytime we quarrel
The fact that guys are talking to you more and spending more time than I do,
The fact that I no longer appeal as much,
That I do not receive as much messages as before
These sucks,
I know I am not that good looking or charming enough,
I really hope we can just revive that special love we had as soon as possible
These few days, I am just lost, I really don't know what should I do about this relationship
Or should I just leave it alone and let it be
Or should I just give up
Just shuffling songs, and had 'Kiss Me' it as the first song
I still remember that time when you just keep singing this song,
It's just so vivid still, but it just seems to be a passing memory now
Remember Nov 2006,
That was the best part of the whole relationship, getting to know you
We can talk for even 6 hours,
I miss those times.
When you miss called me so many times, so cute.
And receiving the box of strawberry related food
The survival chocolate
The rip curl shirt
I want that feeling of really missing you when I am in Sabah and Malaysia that time
The next song, just sums it all up.
Tonight
I remember the times we spent together
On those drives
We had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York [It was alright and splendid at the start]
Everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
Tonight
I remember the days we spent together
Were not enough [It is never enough]
And I used to feel like dreamin'
Except we always woke up
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight [remember those talks we had]
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play [our times we spent last year]
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus
And how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad
Sometimes not having you here
I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
Baby! Baby!
I really wish you do not get so agitated with me so easily
I don't know why, do I really anger you
I just wish everything will be alright
If not, I really don't know what will happen
Do take care tomorrow,
Two project works right,
Loves, Gene.
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